The Way We Were [unfinished post]

I haven't been talking to Romi. She got back together with Sherwin, and needless to say I'm pissed. Rather than waste my time getting mad at her, I've decided to ignore her to avoid conflict. Inspite of that, it is her PC that I'm using to write this entry. Hehe. Anyway. I was searching through her music files and I ran across Barbra Streisand's "The Way We Were". I am so addicted to the song. I've played it over and over both at the office and at home. The lyrics are so poignant. I can't help but get teary. They remind me of Rolly...

I realize that I still haven't finished writing my last entry about Rolly, "Status Quo". It's too late now to finish writing it. So much has happened since. The biggest thing that has happened to me since is that Vincent is my boyfriend now. I know -- weird, considering how the last time I mentioned him in this blog I said I wouldn't want him for a boyfriend. However, when I asked the Universe for the one who would help me finally get over Rolly, he was the one the Universe sent -- and I couldn't be happier. More on that in the next entry though. First let me write one last entry about Rolly and the relationship that could not be.

I think I've said more that enough times that I was tired of the cycle that Rolly and I were in -- us trying to pretend we were just friends, him fooling around, me getting hurt, us kinda breaking up, kinda getting back together... I wanted out, but didn't know how to get out. I tried telling him that I didn't want to see him again, but that didn't work. Absolutely about what to do, I left it to the Heavens to send me someone, and thankfully they did -- Vince. And after Vince and I got together, I told Rolly. "Hey, congratulate me. May boyfriend na ako. c",)"

Rolly didn't react much at first -- or at least I thought he didn't. A few days later, he said that he had looked for Vince in Friendster. He noticed the testimonials we made for each other, and commented on how relatively quick things had happened. Then he became serious. He said he was happy for me, but at the same time was scared of losing me. He noticed that there was a difference in way I was towards him since I met Vince. I texted him less. I guess in a sense I was less friendly.

I told him not to worry. I told him that he would always be someone special to me, and it's true. He will always be my first everything. But at the same time, I felt so happy that I finally met someone who felt for me the same way as I did for him. Being with Vince probably would also mean that I wouldn't get to be with him as much, especially since Vince was kind of jealous of Rolly. This made Rolly sad.

Rolly then said that he regretted we didn't make it as a couple. For some reason he believed Dexter when Dexter pretended to read his palm and said that we would be a couple. He was hoping that the prediction was true -- not that he had done anything to make it come true.

(to be continued...)

Memories...
Like the corners of my mind
Misty watercolor memories
Of the way we were

Scattered pictures
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were

Can it be that it was all so simple then
Or has time rewritten every line
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me - would we... could we...

Memories...
May be beautiful and yet
What's too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget

So it's the laughter
We will remember
Whenever we remember
The way we were
The way we were...