I'm a... S-L-A-V-E... for you...

I haven't had sex with anyone since last week. My average is now down to one man every two months. I really don't mind though. Celibacy doesn't bother me as much as it used to. Maybe it's because recently I have been concentrating on going to the gym and getting physically fit. Last year going to the gym made my libido soar, but I guess the same doesn't apply this year.

I was supposed to meet Mark last week. He may not be the most gorgeous guy but he's always nice to me and the sex is mostly good. Somehow though we couldn't work out a meeting cuz our scheds were hectic. I was also supposed to meet Jorge, but he seemed mega-busy with either lots of errands or lots of men. Brian has been texting me but he seems overeager and that irritates me.

One guy I wanted to meet really badly at first was the_wave. That's his chat nick. I never really knew what his real name was because I don't think I ever got round to asking. He intrigued me because in his ad in the main room of Bi-Manila he was asking if anyone was into S&M. For some reason I macked him and said hey I am. I asked if he was a top and he said yes. I asked if he had a pic and when he gave me one my God he was cute.

Then he asked me if I had ever done this before and I said no. He said that if we were to meet I would have to agree to all of his rules otherwise I would be punished. Then he posted a long list of rules, the gist of which was that he was my master and I was his slave, I had to call him 'Sir' and do everything he said without complaining otherwise he would punish me, stuff like that.

I must admit that I have always been fascinated by bondage, S&M, candlewax dripping and stuff like that. I've always imagined myself to be the master, not the slave, although recently I've wondered what it's like to be dominated by someone. Something about the_wave really intrigued me. So I told him yes I agreed to his rules -- provided that he would use a condom if he fucked me and that he wouldn't use any knives or make me bleed. He said fine wait for my call on Monday morning.

I was really excited and anxious to meet him, but at the same time I was kinda tense because I was thinking that shit he could be a real psychopath. What if he didn't stop punching me or whatever even if I asked him to stop? What if he was into fisting? What if he really was into knife-play?

Now the Sunday evening before he was supposed to call, I slept over at Romi's place. This was the same day I met Alex. When I woke up on Monday I was too groggy and lazy to make it back home in time to receive his call. When I arrived home I saw that he had called several times. Shit he's going to be pissed I thought. I would have called him back if he hadn't blocked his phone number from the caller ID. I went back to Bi-Manila and tried finding him in the chatroom but I couldn't see his nick anywhere. What I did see though was someone saying they were a slave looking for a master.

I macked the slave boy, showed him the_wave's pic, and asked if he recognized the guy. He said yes, he met the guy and they had a 10 hour session before. Apparently the_wave was into fisting, shoving bottles up asses, dripping candlewax all over, and other crazy shit. No knives though. That pretty much settled it for me. It was a good thing we didn't meet. I feel disappointed that I didn't get to be fucked by someone as cute as him, but at the same time I was in no mood to get Coke bottles shoved up my butt.

Oh by the way, since I mentioned that I slept over at Romi's house the day I met Alex, I should mention that when I got to Romi's place, her dog Shira was barking madly at me. After she, the dog, recognized me, she wouldn't stop sniffing me. I tried hard not to laugh while she was doing it because I realized that maybe it wasn't me that Shira didn't recognize, but the scent of Alex on my body. Haha.