Another Again

I really should update this blog now otherwise it'll be another million years before I get to write again. I'm meeting with Juris, Jhona, and Marie later at around 6pm, so I have quite some time before then to write. I'm writing this at the office. I sometimes come here on Sunday when I have nothing to do at home. At least in the office I get free internet access (illegally hehe), and I get free air conditioning.

I'll make this short. I'm seeing Vince again. We're not together again as a couple though. We're just hanging out. Most of my friends will be disappointed, if not pissed off, considering how much Vince hurt me and how much he made me cry. But I missed him. He's not the same guy who broke my heart. At least that's what I feel.

It started when I looked at his Friendster profile. I really just wanted to see how he was doing. I didn't find out much, other than that he posted on his profile that he was open to hookups. Friendster has this thing where you can see who viewed your profile, and he saw that I looked at his, and so he messaged me.

Hey, how are you doing he said. Happy Birthday. Sorry for everything I did to you. I hope you're happy and with someone who can love you in the way I couldn't. Please text me sometime. I hope we can be friends.

It took me a while to message him back. Not that I was still angry or anything, just because I don't check Friendster that often hehe. As soon as I got his number, I texted him. Hey, sorry for the late reply I said. Here's my number. By the way, it's not my birthday yet. You still don't remember what it is after all these years hehe.

And so we met again last week. We talked about stuff that happened to us since we were last together. Mostly he said he wanted to see me again because he wanted to apologize for everything he put me through. I said it's ok I understand why you did the things you did, and I forgave you a long time ago. I'm not angry anymore.

What I told him is true. While I still have a lot of questions I wanna ask him, like why he left me, why he didn't want to work it out, why he did the things he did, I kinda don't want to know the answers anymore. It's so over. And I forgave him already because to be quite honest after all the shit he put me through, any apology he gives isn't going to be enough. So no apologies needed. Everyone just needs to move on already.

We've hung out a lot since last week. We went shopping for home stuff, he redecorated my room, and spent an hour cleaning it. We've watched movies. And yes, we've fucked, and we plan to regularly. I'm sorry, but Vince is huge. You don't pass up on a huge cock, especially if you already know how yummy it is. Don't worry. I don't think I'll fall in love with him again. I know not to repeat the same mistakes I made before. He's a good friend, but a crappy boyfriend. We're better off the way we are now.

That's all for now. I'll try to post a new entry here at least weekly.