Waiting for my Emancipation

I still haven't finished writing my last entry about Rolly. It's taking me a while because even now it's emotionally draining to think about us and our so-called relationship. Nothing has changed. We still meet. He still doesn't talk to me much cuz he feels awkward about the entire thing, as do I. He still goes to Tribu. He still asks me to check his grammar. I guess the only thing different is that we're slowly drifting further and further apart. It's for the best, I guess.

I can't seem to find a man to be with. I'm not even talking about someone for a relationship, cuz I know that will take a while. What I mean is that I can't seem to find someone to have sex with. It's not like before where if I wanted to find someone it only took me an hour in the chatroom before I got hooked. The closest I got to getting hooked recently was with Jasper, someone I had chatted with before. We were supposed to meet last Saturday. It didn't push through because he wanted it to be a threesome, and while we were looking for someone to join us he got logged off. He probably found someone else.

I bought "The Emancipation Of Mimi", Mariah's new album. I love it. I think it's her best album ever. Slick sounds, slick lyrics, and she looks gorgeous on the album cover. The feel of the music is very 70s retro, a lot of the songs sound like they were casually recorded live, and Mariah is hitting the highest notes that she's hit since the early 90s. Above all though, I love the songs because they're mostly about having to move on from relationships that just didn't work out -- crying, saying goodbye, and finding someone else. At this point in my life, this album is my soundtrack...